Rough.

Everything is so difficult. I've forgotten so much in the past two years. How did I manage to erase all that from my memory? All the pain and frustration, I loathed it. I need someone here, someone I can trust... but not trust completely. I won't trust another human being so immensely ever again, never. I do not believe in words...I only see things through actions. The only reliable source is God, him and only him. Goodness I feel so drained. Why must I focus on others? I thought I had gotten over that stupid phase...but then again, everyone cares at some point. I don't think anyone can not care about judgement. Why must life be so hard Lord? Of course... your Word has helped me. You will always be by my side...even when no one else can/will. Blessed be your Name.