WHOOSH!

Things change so fast! It's like "BAM!" done...
;)
HAH! Just wanted to say that ;)
END POST!

(that's how fast life is)

Just tell me...

Don't hide your feelings from me... shrug* People say I'm (slightly) intimidating but that doesn't mean I'm not approachable ;/ Yes, I do have a strong personality but what does that have to do with you? If you've known me long enough, shouldn't you be able to confront me? Why is it that I end up hearing all these complaints after a LONG PERIOD OF TIME? Tell me THEN and THERE so I don't have to be so overwhelmed -.-; Exploding on me is not going to help. Let us reason and talk things out maturely, yes? No matter who you are... confronting me would be the best solution. However, use your words carefully... don't ever be rude. If you treat me kindly, I'll do the same to you. UGH* Don't get all butthurt -.-; it's fine if you're kidding but if we're talking about something serious... be a man and either chill or suck it up. How terribly frustrating!

I seriously can't wait until winter break ;) I'm going to love it<3
Friday is the start to a great/wonderful time.
I'm so EXCITED! I just can't HIDE IT :)
HAHA, how freaking bipolar?
-.-; I'm going to sleep off my frustrations.
GOODNIGHT

No more chances<3

People always say... you should give a person a second chance. I completely agree. What I DISAGREE with is giving the person a THIRD chance. If the other person continues to disappoint, fix the situation! Ugh, people annoy me. How PATIENT do I have to be in order to get you to understand? I'm not a naturally patient individual; (obvious in my nickname: dictator) I don't like waiting things out at all. SOOOO if I'm going to actually WASTE my time trying to give you more&more&more chances, shouldn't you improve? Even a little bit? Actually, it’s probably my fault because I’m allowing you to screw up over again. I shouldn’t be giving you these chances, right? Maybe I’ve become too soft ;/ How disappointing. I WANT YOU TO MAN UP! Seriously, I’m sick of you. How much LONGER!? I’m frustrated, annoyed, and sad. Great mixture<3 Ah, please try. I’m not commanding you to try… I’m politely asking you. Please? -.-; …or should I completely give up on you? Wouldn’t that sound more logical? I don’t really know, persuade me. End of rant ;)
Oh but OVERALL, today was a fantastic day! Subs in BOTH AP LIT&CALC and Spanish wasn’t all that bad. Taking pictures for the band performance wasn’t irritating either<3 They played fabulously! I was amazed at their growth in skills. GOOD JOB ADVANCE BAND! Ha, today was a good day.

HEHEHE<3

It's been great! Things were so horrible for a long period of time >.<;; then suddenly! Life started looking up ;) I am pretty excited! why? MANY REASONS! I'M ON FREAKING BREAAKKKKKKKK while my other friends are still in school (muhaha<3) & I'm done with UC APPS :) and... so on & so on.
So Bui is starting this trend where you write NICE things about people on blogs o.o; I'm tempted to join, seriously... but NO! I won't give in to this trend<3 until ....later~ :) He can set the mark for all of us.

You know, my lover is right. Try not to throw away people unless it is absolutely necessary! Think things through and don't be concerned about yourself -.-; THINK OF OTHERS & how they're doing. Ah, simple and typical message yet it's so powerful.

Another thing! I've come to respect all the graders who can write comments on essays NICELY. WOW, it's so hard to say things without hurting the writer. I say Thank you to Katherin Shin & Joseph Oh for helping me grade essays! You guys are so smart<3 & helpful ;)

RANDOM: Is ninth grade the stage where siblings start to crack and act ugly? I don't know if it's just me causing the problem... but my brother is starting to develop anger issues. Mhmm,,, only ninth grade. Sound about right to you? Jeesh -.-; WATCH OUT! & please... don't give in to them. OHMYGOODNESS I Just thought of something to write about :)
MOTHERS (&FUTURE MOTHERS)! DO NOT... DON'T YOU DARE!!! Give your children freaking CANDY when they are CRYING! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? Why in the WORLD would you reward them for embarrassing themselves? CRYING? I've already witnessed too many spoiled children come into this world... I've learned MUCH from Preschool. Why do parents do that? There's this one kid who gets special attention because his mom is a teacher... so he gets extra candy and food etc. Is that FAIR!? NO! I get so angry/annoyed when I see him in the back. "Why are you back here!? GO BACK!" I can't yell at him too much, his mom is everywhere ;/ Shame... but to all you future mothers... don't you DARE. That's the worst thing to do -.-; Everytime I get put in charge of crying kids... I take them in the room and just stare... after a few minutes they just look up at me and... wonder why I'm not giving them special attention. I go "You done crying now? Seriously, you need to stop." AND THEY DO! Kids know that I'm not going to give in to their crazy tantrums! OHMY some are insane :) HAHA<3 Kicking&screaming&crying&whining. Don't give in ladies&gentlemen. Just because they are 1, 2, 3, OR 4 does NOT mean they aren't smart. Dang, this one girl is incredibly clever. I'll tell a story about her next time... but WOW. Kids know how to get what they want... don't give in! <33333
HEHE. That's my rant of the day!

Enough is enough...

I'm tired. It feels like nothing now ;(
I'm sorry but if things don't change soon...
like... SOON SOON!
then bye.

Rough.

Everything is so difficult. I've forgotten so much in the past two years. How did I manage to erase all that from my memory? All the pain and frustration, I loathed it. I need someone here, someone I can trust... but not trust completely. I won't trust another human being so immensely ever again, never. I do not believe in words...I only see things through actions. The only reliable source is God, him and only him. Goodness I feel so drained. Why must I focus on others? I thought I had gotten over that stupid phase...but then again, everyone cares at some point. I don't think anyone can not care about judgement. Why must life be so hard Lord? Of course... your Word has helped me. You will always be by my side...even when no one else can/will. Blessed be your Name.

THIS MADE MY DAY

[18:29] jeremyskimmer54: are you all good?
[18:29] rawringfoo: yeahhhh.
[18:29] rawringfoo: xP
[18:29] jeremyskimmer54: kay
[18:29] jeremyskimmer54: ahaha
[18:29] jeremyskimmer54: just asking
[18:29] rawringfoo: THANKS FOR THE CONCERN <333
[18:29] rawringfoo: just made me smile!
[18:29] jeremyskimmer54: ahahah
[18:30] jeremyskimmer54: youre welcome dude
[18:30] jeremyskimmer54: cuzz as much as you might not htink so
[18:30] jeremyskimmer54: i do care
[18:30] jeremyskimmer54: (:


I posted this because... I would never expect this from BUI :)<333
Thank you Jeremiah ^^

Patience my friend...

I hate waiting. I loathe it. It's the worst/best feeling! Worst because the entire time you're thinking "What am I doing?" Best because at the end, you feel accomplished. YES! I was patient! HAHA<3 For others waiting might come naturally, but... dang! For me? I am a severely impatient person. Grrr~
I'm waiting at the moment, trying to distract myself ^^*
LALALALA! I love whistling Christmas carols! SO CATCHY! Join and harmonize with me. I love it when two people whistle together, it's cute.
Mmm, so band had their final/championship competition today. ;/ It was nice seeing them all again.
The overall feeling was great and emotional -> hardcore Yearbook status<3 (Mattie knows what I mean) Capturing the moment! Yes, that's what we Yearbookies do. People should give us more credit! Takes a lot of hardwork to create a beautiful book... Anyways, GOOD SKILL band kids. Always think positively during season. Ok?

My blog is a complete mess today ;( There is no flow ;X
OH WELL. I'll think of something better to talk about either ... tonight or tomorrow :)<3
kekeke.
Good luck & goodnight!

Priority

I've learned to place things in order of importance. :) Well, I know what's more significant but that doesn't always mean...I go in order. Tsktsk. Shame!

In my own personal opinion, school comes first (excluding religion/family because it's obvious that God/family come(s) before all else). Many people I know...believe friendships/relationships outweigh school. Don't worry, I completely understand but I do have an opposing viewpoint. Friends (the majority) are people who gradually come&go within time, correct? Some individuals are always with you... those people are part of the special few. Of course, I'm not saying that you lose EVERY SINGLE person, which refers back to the "special few," but are they really worth the drama? the emotions? the care? That's debatable.
I've witnessed others become severely unstable, emotionally wise, due to disputes with friends (not excluding myself). It's not wrong to disagree with others or give varying opinions, but things can get chaotic! I try to stray away from conflicts, they are a waste of time...because they usually end up filling up my mind; I can't focus! It's happened to me many times (EXAMPLE):
3 AP tests tomorrow. One project due the next day. Yearbook deadline to complete. Study for SATS. Get it? I need as much time as possible and it's retarded because everytime I have a week as crucial as this, friends start to get in the way. What's going to get me into college? Was it worth receiving that B? Am I even going to keep in contact with that person 10 years from now? Do you get my point?
It's not like I don't value my friends... not at all! But I still believe school is the current priority.

P.S.: I hope you enjoyed your cereal while reading this Bui :)
I love blogging. Thank you Kelly for bringing me into this! Hehe<3

Oh! Besides the Priority portion of my blog... I had an interesting talk with Tony Hu today. He's hilarious, anyone who knows him can relate. Mmm, I respect Tony. Although he is SEMI-new to this country, he has become involved in Model UN-a debate team. He spoke very well today and came up with valid points! If a kid like Tony has the courage to speak aloud in front of others (even with his heavy accent), then why don't we all try to do something out of our comfort zones? That should be a goal for you and me.
CHRISTIAN FRIENDS! I have finally received the little pocket books! They only contain the book of John but it's still helpful. I encourage you to challenge yourselves and give a book to a non-Christian. Spread the news! I have 30 books. Please ask me for one! I'll try to give them out as well. Special thanks to Tim Voros for introducing me to these books<3 He was the first person to challenge me.
Now it's your turn. Haha, how typical of me.
BAM BAM!
OHMYGOODNESS, I just thought of a whole new topic to talk about! SOUND EFFECTS! Freaking, people laugh at me but they usually don't disagree with my reasoning... Sound effects make things a bit more exciting and BOOM-y. Ah, the famous "BOMCHIKAWOWWOW" <- did I type that correctly? I'm not sure. <3
Try and add effects to your conversations, surprise a friend! Trust me, as long as you act chill...you won't look like an idiot. HAHA, just play it off well. That's all for today<3 I've wrote enough.

My NEW ending phrase:
jookhatabang -> combination of jerk+cool+hate+bang
ah, lame?

ugh.

Every single day... why do you always have to yell at me? I've been enduring your daily (or every other day) screams for about seventeen years now. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO SHOUT AT ME!?!?! I'm disgusted. I've realized that my 'aggressive' qualities have derived from you. I hate it. Every time you talk to me, I immediately give you attitude. I don't mean to... I really don't. But after awhile, you become too overwhelming.
Story time:
It's kind of... funny but when I was in middle/elementary school, I didn't even KNOW it was possible/allowed to hate one's teachers, parents, or anyone with authority. I was so SHOCKED in fifth grade when this other girl told me, "I don't like our teacher. She's mean." (WHAT? This girl doesn't like our teacher? What???) Ah, I'm glad I learned from that! Imagine, Ashley H. liking all of her teachers? What nonsense :) <3 But in a way, I wish the younger generations would learn to respect the adults a tad bit more. I understand that not everyone is as mature as they should be, but that doesn’t mean they don’t deserve common courtesy.

<3 Haha excuse me for my sudden bursts of anger ;/
I have been unstable for the past month. I am sure that during Christmas time...&after! I will leave HAPPIER/JOLLIER posts for everyone to read.
HEHE<3 That actually makes me excited! CHRISTMAS IS ALMOST HERE!!!!

MW2?

What is with all this crazy hype about MW2?I prefer old school Super Smash Bros on NINTENDO64 ;)<3 now THAT is a classic. Seriously, I love the way things looked ->not crazily realistic but cartoony-ish.What's wrong with that?Absolutely nothing. Well, I guess I can't really bag on MD2. I rarely play games&I don't appreciate the "beauties" of it. Maybe one day I'll be mad skilled like Marisa and own EVERYBODY ;3. theTHANG will teach me... mhmm that's right!
Anyways, I've heard people say this many times but I've never thought about it. How do you know if you'll be alive in the next five minutes? or hour? or day? God blesses us every minute/second of our lives. He gives us life not only here, but in heaven (which is where the true "home sweet home" is).

Bug bites suck. . . so does ______

Wow. I guess I didn't "waste" my time but it was pretty blah?
Band practice from 3:00-6PM. I'm not even IN BAND... I was taking Yearbook pictures and some of the pics turned out well<3 Hopefully! I forgot how hardcore band practices are and how much school time they take away. JEESH! & all those GNATS!
Effing disgusting!~
However, I'd have to admit that waiting those three hours was worth it. ^^*
It brought back old memories... good ones! I "almost" miss band. :)
Not quite, I still have Yearbook! Mmm, so back to the worth it part... Good memories + spent time with friend(no (s)) + met new band kids. Wait.... ohmygoodness -.-; I just noticed.. but I have bug bites all over! Never again... LOL<3
Oh and... I tried playing the Mellophone and dude, I played three notes. I'm so skilled ;) Who the heck can play three solid notes in one try? Especially if one hasn't EVER attempted it before?
Ok, I'm overexaggerating :D I could barely play any notes HAHA but it was EXCITING!
Mmm. KEKEKE<3 Someone told me to post new blogs :) Because they enjoyed reading the random _____ I make up!

Just to let everyone know... so they don't get confused... AGAIN!
Lovahs- JUST FRIENDS! Loves one another through Christ and that's all. Chill/close friends.
OK? That's what it means! Not "together." Everyone understand? Nod if you do :) Good! Ah... I'm so tired :( Just to let people know... NAPS DON'T EFFING WORK!
At least for me they don't. I always take an hour or two hour nap but I end up sleeping after another hour. It's horrible! I like them though<3 Keke<3

Random topic! Everyone is starting to date. I DON'T KNOW WHY!? It was all completely RANDOM! Is it because it's senior year and people just want to experience relationships? I have no clue ;( To all my friends: go ahead! I don't care anymore LOL<3
Enjoy yourselves.

Lover<3

My lover. Love can fail :)
You lie.

F*** this!

For the majority of my life, I have refused to cuss. Simply put, I thought cussing was an immature and pathetic way of expressing one's emotions. However, I have noticed a few benefits that come from cursing. If an individual is not known to cuss on a daily or minute basis, cursing can come in handy!
People will STOP & stare, "Oh my goodness, did you just say the S word Ashley?" Yes, I did. Did I get my point across? Most clearly and effectively. I am not encouraging people to start blasting out foul words RIGHT and LEFT! All I'm stating are observations I've come to notice. I still believe cussing is a waste of breath, but I'll give it some acknowledgement... it is pretty powerful stuff (to a certain degree)!
Hah<3 A random blog...

Straying away from the cussing topic!
Let's call this person Bob. Ok? Bob and I have similar views on a variety of topics. It's quite wonderful because no one seems to understand my mentality. However, I'm not sure if I have influenced Bob in the best way? Sure, Bob has started to open up and it's grand! But I'm worried that Bob will start taking a step into "that phase." All you shy people know what I'm talking about! The "I was too nice before so I'm going to be a jerk to everyone now" phase. Shrug* I doubt that'll happen but it's best to keep my guard up. Also! Bob... just because I am not as polite to people I ... dislike with passion... does not mean you should mimick my actions. Stay the sweet person you are and approach situations differently, it's for the better.
"Okie dokie artichokie?" -Our Lit. teacher<3
I've decided my new ending phrase should be... (drumroll*)
...
...
...
...
I'll decide later... everything I thought of sounds retarded -.-;
Goodbye<3

Irritated.

I'm excited<3

<3 I know this isn't that significant... but someone said he enjoyed reading my blogs :) I can't tell if he was saying it sarcastically because... well, it was online o.o; Dang it! But it's OK! I'll take it as a compliment&just remain happy<3
Muhaha~
Mmm, today we had a senior assembly during homeroom. It made my day! Sort of? Stupid Mattie wouldn't keep his mouth shut & kept on trying "stuff." Hah<3 I forgive you Mattie... it's what all dictators do. We forgive. That's why you people obey our commands.
We are too cool. KEKE!

Mmm, special thanks to my lovahh<3 You always stay up with me... even when you're incredibly tired! I truly do appreciate the sacrifices you make& I love our weird/entertaining talks. Puhaha~ Yogurt power!!!

Mashi. I told you =.=; If I don't talk to you for a while... I start to get irritated & I blast it out on my other friends ;( Or who ever I am talking to at the moment. Grr. I hope you keep your promise<3 Coffee/Red bull time! Yesss<3 I like it when you keep your promises ^^*

And oh... I just remembered something! I want to apologize to you DK ;( I'm sorry if I don't seem as enthusiastic to talk to you... maybe you always meet me when I'm in one of my moods? It's quite odd. WELL! Just know that I do care for you ;) It's not only for your smartnesss... kk?
TO end the DAY/BLOG!
I am going to STUDY SATS!!!!!!!!!!!! & take a one hour nap ;)
Tired T.T I'm going back to my sophomore habits -.-;;; 4-5 hours of sleep everynight.
Stupid work. <3 I finished all my homework at 8:00ish TODAY! AMAZING HUH?
Yeah beat that suckaahhsss ;)<3

eff .... this

FCK MY LIFE.
Yeah, that's right >:(
What the heck have I been doing? I need to rant...
I've just wasted so much money over that one dang thing.
I'm trying not to cuss! Because cussing is useless & immature!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR*
effff this =.=;

O.O

I've finally come to agree with all my freaking school friends :)
SAT is whack! If you study the strategies long enough... and practice practice practice! You will be able to get a .... 2200? HAHA<3 possibly!
All these people I thought were stupid.... aren't that bad. o.o;;;
I guess I look down on people too much ;( My fault. Which is the reason why I hate to share my own scores >.<; I'm afraid that people will judge me the same way I judge others.
Depressing and pathetic!
I'll try to ... give everyone a chance and quit assuming things so much.
Hmmm, I want to write smart things on here like Blaine! But that wouldn't sound like me ^^
So I'll just continue to sound very childish/immature ^^ greaaattt<3
I hope everyone's day was much better than mine!
Smile<3 Like Joseph said... night is like a new day<3 So be happy & live it up!
I want to party all the time second semester!
Watch out everyone! I'm rebelling like mad at the beginning of January<3 MUHAHA!
Join me?

=.=; my lovah sucks

.... am I acting immature!?!??!
oh my goodness. I guess I am >:(
pshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhht
I am angry.
period.
Make it up to me >:(
or else.......

RANDOMNESS :)<3 muhahaha

It's a horrible thing to lie to your parents, right?
Dang, I'm guilty. Kuya (David B.) always tells me how horrible it is but it is so much easier! Actually, I take that back. I always preplan events one-two weeks prior...
Then why do it?
Hmmm, well Kelly told me that in Psychology... he learned that rebelling from time to time was a GOOD thing! Shocking. I know. So that's my excuse! Rebelling is a GOOD thing<3 MUHAHA!

Ok so one day I was debating with my pastor.
Which one is worse? Smoking a cigarette or not taking your plate to the counter?
I say cigs are worse but heyyy that's just me.
My pastor, on the other hand, said that refusing to take your plate to the counter is a severe sign of disrespect and that... it is simliar to murdering your own mother. He said it would CRUSH her heart and blah blah blah. Really?
That's an extreme way of looking at it. I STILL say cigs are worse...
Shrug* Just threw in that story... it relates to rebelling? So it's not TOO random, right?
(No offense to my pastor :D <3 I always debate with him ^^ oh and... I OWNED HIM AT AIR HOCKEY! 6 to 4! WHAT NOW PASTOR!??!)

Anyways. <3
Let's talk about my lovah! :)
****BEFORE THAT! Let's get this straight...
LOVER & LOVAH are two completely DIFFERENT things!
LOVAH <- is more friendly-like and does not mean that the two people are dating...
LOVER<- a bit more serious sounding...could POSSIBLY mean that they are dating... but it's not guaranteed!****
We spent time together at the band competition at our school today :)<3
Longest time I've spent with him this year. 3.5 hrs?
He's always giving his opinions to THIS and THAT! It's pretty funny though.
OH and... that the cutest thing he's ever said to me was today in the band area!!! with David :D
Dav:"Nae yuh jah yah!"
Lovah:"No she's mine!"
HAHAHA
Short but cute. Agree?

And hmm.... how to end this blog?
I WILL RULE THE WORLD WITH MARISA BISARES :)
DICTATOR&THETHING<3
Watch out people...because we're coming!

MIXTURE :(

Getting attention is wonderful... only for a short period. For some reason, I have been craving attention much more this year... compared to my other 16 years of existence. Why? No clue! Actually, I have an idea that might explain my sudden want... Anyways, attention isn't everything. It can be quite horrible after a while. People start to rage over time... no joke. Either out of jealousy or out of annoyance? Attention isn't everything.

Dictating people what to do ;/ can get pretty old, yes?
Dictator blah blah blah! I don't always order people around to help myself... sometimes
I do it for others, whether they realize that or not.
Simple example:
Marisa or Danielle didn't bring food to lunch one day... I always bring lunch and I have a few snacks left to spare. Of course...the first step is to ask politely, "Do you want some?"
I've learned that if you show "I'M EFFING IRRITATED! TAKE THE FREAKING BAR!" on your face... the person will eventually take the bar :)
Weird logic.. but it works! So I choose to use it xP

<3
That's all :)

Who are you?

Why don't I know you?
Aren't you my best friend (Or at least one of them)? ^I believe everyone realizes their flaws at some point and I've always thought I had it together... but now I see the real me^ Who in the world are you? What the heck have I been doing spending so much time with you? Do I even know your ambitions, goals, or thoughts for the future? I'm sorry, it is my fault for labeling you as my "best friend" when I barely know you. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate everything you've done... but it confuses me. How quickly people come and go in my life, and I'm barely at that middle stage! [Excuse me if I am terribly random] How did we meet? Are we even close? I sort of want to drop you and have a fresh new start... with someone different. That would be too selfish of me, huh?
At the same time, I grieve over our friendship. The reason why is because before I realized this, I merely talked to you a few times throughout the month... and found myself content. BUT we always had the same exact conversation, you know what I mean. I've decided that I won't waste my breathe to talk about.... useless topics that won't really get either of us anywhere. Is this a useless topic? Naww ;) <3
Sadly, I still don't know you. How about a fresh start?
Who knows what will happen! Whew.
"Smile and wave boys... just smile and wave."

I made the text bigger :) happy Kelly?